this planet wasnt made for me..



all of you live so easy..

i like my boyfriend.and to dance.and to hold hands.
:)

the rest of you basically suck :)

god doesnt hate anyone btw

   LOVEHATEHERO  10.26.05

omg..

this is going to  be the best two days of my life..
i swear...

no lies..
<3


i love lovehatehero with all i have..

you should go see them..
they are nice.. <3


umm..

yeah.. today was good..


im pretty not happy with you seth..
ill pray for you...


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and dont take that the wrong way...

P.S SEX RUINS RELATIONSHIPS..  I KNOW.. I KNOW

so i didnt think i would update this one much..>

but this.. is because zach reads my xanga..

yeah.. zach..

so what? i had a eating problem..
at least i didnt have a pity me problem.. and cut "im sorry".. in my arms.. so a girl could feel sorry..

frankly ... i dont care...
yes.. you have a understanding girlfriend now..

but when you get annoying to her..she wont understand anymore..
yes..

im sure i could critique you.. and tell you what you did wrong..
but.. you should learn on your own :)

WESTM00REon16: ohhh yea im crazy...no..i have depression u know about it
WESTM00REon16: and look at u..mrs eating condition
Oh Blasphemyx: everyone does..
WESTM00REon16: ur crazy ...crazy over kevin
WESTM00REon16: you starve ur self just cause u want him back

pity me.. pity me...
lol..

then he goes on about me being christian..

WESTM00REon16: are u god? oh and u know what miss christian..would jesus do that to someone?
WESTM00REon16: jesus wouldnt sit there n critisize someone they dont even know about
WESTM00REon16: you know what..ill pray for u tonight..you need it

haha..
i need prayers?

exactly..


ive prayed for you on a regular basis..
cause you need god..

maybe just maybe.. youll learn..
and as for kev... yes..

i do love that boy.. probably more than ANY girl could ever love you..

you big hunk of annoying man meat you.. :)
and no you werent a rebound..

cause frankly..
that word is cliche..

i just thought you were pretty..
too bad.. you shouldnt judge a book by its cover...

yeah..

i think about 98% of the world population.. is better than you personality wise..

even some mentally challenged kids :)
but.. im not the one to judge..


yes i am pretty angry right now..
no im not the one to judge...

but seriously..

who.. after four days of dating them. is gunna carve im sorry in their arms?

wth?

c'mon.. if thats not self pity i dont know what is.. :)

well im done for the ranting.....
please pray for Zach Aitouddahi..
for he is psychotic.. :)

and if jesus can heal the blind..and give the deaf hearing..
im sure giving a psycho person a new personality shouldnt be too challenging.. :)

<3 with muchos love

emiley amanda

uhm

im thinkin about making a new xanga...
cause..

there are some people i dont exactly like reading this..
and i dont want to make it protected..


haha..


I want to go deeper..

i want to be deeper..
i want to talk about things... that..

i cant on here..


so think of a name..


and yeah ..
:)

ill talk about everything..

like how im not in a good mood.. and why..

im super kinda sick...
and well i know why they call it a crush..

cause it sucks real bad.. :)

im on the phone with Daniel Belflower.. cause he is a real nice boy.. and i have known him basically forever..

so i didnt go to work.... :(

didnt feel super well.....
 and...

other not good stuff happened...
and more..

and more..

then i went to church..
 and saw daniel belflower... and brett and kaelin.. and everyone

i let mark read bradley hathaway... <3

he loved it..

i think...
i love our youth minister..


BTW..

i love god...
and i am getting too consumed with petty crushes.. and other kinds of things.. that i dont really need to be involved with right now..

i havent been eating much..

i will use this line to say..


I HATE YOU TRAVIS LEE MALLETT ...

CAUSE YOU GOT ME SUPERRR ADDICTED TO THE ROCKET SUMMER..<3

thats it for that rant..

im not very happy.. and i think i need sleep.. to make all these BLAH emotions go away..


i want to curse and yell and scream right now.. and make this illness go away..

but ...

sadly.. i dont think its an illness...

i think that im worrying about far too much... and its killing me...


alot..

:(

i need to eat..
not because im hungry..

because i need to

well im done..

who cares right?

<3

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yes.. new xanga..

if your important enough.. ill tell you the name..
<3